suicide note

honestly i dont really know what to put here but i guess this is it

zac, amel, alix, rosie, dope, homies and pawn u guys were cool, glad i met u even if im pretty sure majority of you stopped caring or didn't care in the first place
alejandro i havent known you for that long but you were a great person, hope you date that girl you like
sno and weski we didn't talk that much in the grand scheme of things but you two were cool people too hope you guys both have hood lives
why now? i dont wanna deal with all of this shit cascading down on me and even if i held out some hope for the future id wanna kms even more after and do this anyways lmao

the rest of my life fucking sucks too so there aint no solace there

honestly expected to do this in february (i wrote that down again earlier, how ironic) but i guees life is full of twists and turns

i wanted to make music and improve my art atleast a little before this but it doesn't really matter now anyways lmao, and its not like i wouldn've been too successful

i dont blame any of my teachers even if the school kinda sucked, that was just what my retarded ass got for picking an all boys school despite knowing what'd happen. at worst the teachers just couldn't teach and at best they were kind people, that goes for my old school too

i regretted leaving the second i left that school but kept silent since yk its kind of a **** move to beg for something for like half a year but thats just a consequence of thinking that joining my buddies in fucking wonderland would solve all my problems lmao

i dont think i would've survived much longer trapped in this shitty fucking body anyways and regardless joining this shitty all boys school completely fucked my future over, i just didn't apply myself at all during the end lf my time at my old school

only thing i had potential in was drama and this school doesn't even do drama so look where that got me

not gonna bring family into this since it'd just complicate all this shit and make it harder to read if u guys even gaf

shoutout to alex giannascoli for making my favourite songs of all time, if i ever decided to get into music production you'd 100% be my biggest inspiration

i guess thats it really

this definitely serves a testament to how boring my life was lmao

hopefully either dead by today, the 2nd or the 3rd if im not a *****

bye everyone, thanks for the ride i guess
if theres an afterlife see you all in hell