Hi Linda

This has been eating me up for an extrememly long time, but you desrve to know the truth.
In 2018 I abruptly chose to drop out of KU and I've been lying to you about it for the last five years.
I never really put any thought into it and I have been running away from the truth this whole time.
I feared that you would hate me for it and even beat me up severely
The more I kept lying the more the fear kept compounding causing me to lie even more.
I am so sorry I have failed you as a brother.

On Saturday I went and saw a therapist who advised me to tell you the whole truth without holding anything back.
I came back home ready, but I got scared and decided to use you as as messenger to preview the bad news to mum & dad.
This was intended to prepare you for bad news but keep you calm at the same time. That's why I emphasised my safety in the texs.
Since you took it as if I was on the verge of self-harm, you started worrying which had the opposite effect.
And when Dad called on Sunday I had not completed typing this document, so I panicked and continued to lie.
I am such a disappointment to you and I am willing to take whatever punishment you have for me.
There were never any issues at the registrar, It's all just been hot air, and thats why I insisted on not having you or Dad accompany me to school.
I am not at home but I don't want to meet dad physically yet since I am very scared of what he will do to meand I dont know how to say the truth verbally yet.

There's a lot more to tell, but this is a quick summary of the current situation.

Sorry.